The Mass of Many Things

It was a damp and curiously sunny afternoon,
two of what couldn’t be together,

as a peaceful act of vengeance…,

trembling trees of unforgiveness,

we swallowed each moments nectar

and it made us drunk…, of life,

of meaning and the mass of many things,

lighter than a feathers touch,

it was too damp and too sunny…,

curious - I might say.

Then time went by,

men sat on their crooked chairs,

pinetrees were smoothly waving 

the cold mornings goodbye…,

as something was left unsaid,

a lovers touch, a souls kiss,

a Devils handshake…,

and the wrinkled newspaper

thrown into dumpsters pit,

regular irregularities.

Old Pinus was a dancer,

he placed baby trees with such care

as holding someone close to his chest,

as giving his heart piece by piece…,

all that was heard was a calm sigh,

nothing more was born that day.

Two or more of us died after that,

not from mnemonia or other written diseases,

but something of a more spiritual kind,

a souls journey…,

the spaces between the visible 

and invisible,

since non of us knew the issue at hand

and even if it was truly an issue…,

we wrote it off as something mystical

and never spoke of it again,

just perceived each our own change,

in heart, body, mind and soul,

Old Pinus was there…,

as all of us.

Some of those days passed by with extreme speed,

like a catcher in the rye…,

to our very own Eye,

just as we were about to be born again,

from all that moss,

covering the rocks like small hats,

Remembrence Of Things Past,

not in times convoluted space,

but of love and life,

that the Mother of this world gifts,

the aspartame kiss…, 

Neon dreams.

Full pledged flag hand,

holding the sun in its wake,

oh what a sight to behold,

and a memory flooded 

the gates of Tartarus…,

as we were walking all rivers,

with the flies, birds and the bees.

Saturday

the 17th of January, 2026

As it should be

The night is young…,

as it should be,

thoughts linger for a moment,

as saying “Stop, hold me more!”,

we are young trees,

world as a forest creaks…,

in its wake,

truth be told…,

this is a moment’s peace,

nothing lasts…,

and it is good,

as it should be.

Ignited North

You are the soothing sound of silence,

when the first snow has fallen…,

crystals of some foreign planet,

faces looking up, souls inward,

as a bird of perpetual flapping,

enigmatic existence…,

that is how we met…,

true travelers of ignited North,

small prayers on small acts of kindness,

sun on top of the moon…,

wind gushing through your fence,

trees all dressed in the servitude of Autumn,

we are truly wealthy beyond measure,

beyond all accounts…,

as a harbinger of solitude,

the slap of future over the face of mankind,

there is a ghost following you,

whose ghost are you?…,

as a kid, smacking lips together,

different tastes of certain spices,

like a train blowing noise with smoke,

chuggin, n chuggin to those distant lands,

where there grow a wild, wild trees,

and bushes, and berries, and beautiful women,

as to say: search for me

and I will show you beauty,

and search we did,

as to answer that foreign call, that God,

echoes of spruce falling in the mist of winter,

soon upon us with its purity…,

a sky so creamy as a flat white coffee,

your neck fighting the urge to push that head,

push it for a tiny kiss,

just for me, just for fun, 

and I remember your smell,

took me a long while to fade those roses,

the terrors of not knowing, or knowing too much,

all flew away with the birds,

flowed away with the stream, a river, 

crude rain over the gray Mountain (singing our song),

you were there, always,

as Nature is to all things, 

until remedy came not from friendship,

but solitude of togetherness,

as a bleak flex of steam cleaning the inpurities,

we cleansed our souls by the mere presence,

that was all that was needed,

no more, no less…,

Exercitatio Anatomica de Motu Cordis et Sanguinis in Animalibus

An Anatomical Exercise on the Motion of the Heart and Blood in Living Beings

or how we thought of it…,

the one and only true carcass of inspiration,

we - the uninitiated,

by the vast knowledge of infinite space,

monsters of time…,

William Harvey thought…,

a thought and nothing else,

just like a wind on a barley field,

he scrubbed the mystical,

the silk thread of light,

the momentary speck of God,

a creature so true,

so true and violently indulgent,

like a sand moving in the desert,

dunes so eloquently dancing,

the innocuous touch of gold,

stream of that someone’s son,

we stretched the form,

and it sang the universal tune,

notes written by some creator…,

lost between time and space,

barely breathing…,

a sleeping giant,

come to wake the world,

and all it desired,

was to meet it’s maker,

a prison of mirrors,

far away land,

the Self and I…,

he thought,

soon the birds and the beasts,

beautiful sense of losing,

amped by the notion of good will…,

towards the unimaginable,

beyond the norm…,

there he could mold and be molded,

we was he and always will be,

purest of snow…,

white is the hand that feeds,

broken heirloom of a broken heir,

there I will build my kingdom…,

of kindness and sorrow lost,

there I will be the forever more…,

Will-o-the-wisps

A good song is its own reward,

as is death, a poem…,

a wild night out,

when the eagles, the owls,

shadows in the mist,

misleading whisps,

they a-leading a traveller,

through the lonely,

the idle ignes fatui,

where are you going?

a sweet solemn,

we the Father, the Mother,

now we a boating,

bloating, boasting,

for you…,

your attention,

fast…, cry,

act now,

for your time is short,

no time true,

a ladle on a swollen…,

bucket of…,

we the Great 

Underminer…,

all the old,

newer too,

soo. (Estonian),

the few…,

becomes the many,

what evil emanation?,

never evil,

it is functio,

a similitude,

Naue Tempera,

to be reassured,

of rescue…,

and he filed,

the fangs of longitude,

Middlemarch,

provincial la Boheme,

a subtle node of indiscretion,

it didn’t mean it…,

of a lake, a river,

pond of Pontius,

a quiet epitath,

whisper of words,

uttered in completion,

never completed…,

so never uttered at all,

this is a song…,

the Opposite

They said life was supposed to be fun

and an easy ride…,

yet to you it isn’t,

violent acts of your imminent Nature,

seeds from the Underbelly of Kraken,

that unconscious part of Society,

Here we Be,

Here I laid,

Here I’ll …,

as the thorns of Rose,

killing the sight with tremors,

She, as a plaque of colors,

humming the tune of your…,

pre-determined exit, (Existence)

to a Heavenly sphere,

a knifes edge,

dull profanity,

something not working,

as quite…,

an horrific-prolific prophylactic,

soon to rise for the occasion,

like that ancient tomb,

from sand and Dune,

to meet the Hollow Men,

the stuffed men,

filled with straw, (Eliot)

Oh how I wish to see you win,

not just…,

but win big,

go home and be born again,

instigate the new Order,

out of the Chaos of your doing,

…, or the Opposite.

Aspidistra Flying

“Sometimes I think we’re all corpses.

Just rotting upright.”

- George Orwell, Keep the Aspidistra Flying

Through the silence of broken things,

a quiet listener…,

his thumping heartbeats,

the flow of bright red blood,

a vein pulsating like a magistral

in the middle of a big city,

there we sat like Buddha,

rusty souls titillating 

with excitement,

Who comes with 

this kind of disdain?…,

filled and filed,

overboard and simple-minded,

a rake with too small an amount of leaves,

too much noise, too much noise,

he was a flower ready to grow,

a drunkard of ease,

through and through,

many a moons they wrestled 

beneath the orthodox lamp,

a violent rush of blood to the head,

other body parts and regions too,

if to be precise…,

they called it love,

or some other earthly beast,

without face or any kind of passport,

a stranger in a strange land,

an empty orchestra,

a pointless poem,

lifeless eyes floating against the window,

searching for a way out…,

I would guess,

but no, oh no, no, no,

they were aliens of plant life,

monsters of infinity,

eternal recorrection (recurrence) of some sorts,

an evil machination,

comes from Niccolo Machiavelli,

I bet you,

How much?…,

then a soldiers kiss landed,

a seldom wanted sound of foom,

mastery in cheese-making,

and of the return home,

relational diagrams show,

fight or flight is a sudden death

of all those adventurers,

souls adamant for recalibration,

through external values

or internal spiritual practices,

darkest of nights,

a walk in a forest filled with witches,

Sorrow found me when I was young,

and to Hell with you,

creepy lover-boys,

soft and steady wrinkles 

turned to gold,

in a cold winter afternoon,

or was it morning,

when you touched me,

pancakes and coffee,

other tasty treats,

and now my infinite Space,

the valleys and streams,

fountains of pure water,

a solemn fisherman on Lake Como,

regulated through years and…,

other curious tastes,

we follow no form,

no needle in a haystack,

or only the bodies of goddesses,

their beauty is unrecognizable,

Antiquity Mild…,

that’s how I’d name them,

on this beautiful day.

Unsolemn

Soon it will lose its very touch,

a silently flowing stream of consciousness,

and of love and of life and of happiness,

all suffering and other self-promoting assholes,

the cult of human-reality…,

finally done for,

this is the creed of the little people,

lizards walk on sand…,

hot and steamy memories,

boys naked near the beach,

girls quietly watching, exhuming,

something dreamy creating a visible cloud,

wet and moist, slimy thrust of pubic bone,

home alone, home together…,

sun was its own worst enemy,

too hot to hug, too far to reach,

past of this cosmic melody…,

relativity unsolemn and a waking,

a waking…, a waking…,

up too slow,

then down again,

branches of a fig tree, fruit so sexy,

a tasty and succulent oral s*x,

natures hegemony over orgasms,

Creation in its vilest…,

we created what others feared,

it was a field day, okra, wheat, corn

on a strangers cob,

lubed tenderness,

and of all the unsolicited advice,

we received none…,

as young age tends to act on,

tends to use crayons on asphalt,

melting toffee on bellies,

strawberries and chocolate,

hot butter, yellow as the bus,

burning the lobsters red,

while the growing gets rough,

when the going gets tough,

through the vine,

and of cotton and blues,

and the skies left for me and you.

Ambrosia dumosa

Who, in their right mind…,

would follow the Hummingbird,

a fast swift of Heaven,

a lovers handshake,

and then sing…,

songs of Autumn and Life,

all the new Endings,

new Beginnings,

thrust through the Meadow,

newlyweds laughing…,

soon it will…,

be vanquished,

be everlasting,

the presence of - 

a Cosmic Power,

a red day…,

a Dawn of Merrow,

protecting the alone

and Lost…,

who, in their right mind

would shake and stir,

the shape of water,

the falling leaf,

its trajectory,

who would disrupt,

the oncesoeverlasting

Beauty of a woman,

tinnitus saying more-

thanitsfairshare,

and the lost got loud,

Journeys are seldom the same,

a fine print on a skin…,

whiter than snow,

a muddy pool…,

of indiscretion,

few of us sounded so,

Wise and Merry,

bearded getting-

toletyouknow,

and then tolerate it,

sleep with it…,

taste it,

through the Burrobush,

so slick, so tender,

it dances in the wild

and desert Wind,

lonelyastheycome,

and we followed them,

Moses in the dark,

fire-brushed face…,

tumultuous roar,

near the cave

where you slept

and all your animals,

who in their right mind…,

would disturb a well-

ofgrandandglorious,

ideas…,

and so it goes,

the Summer of (f)lies,

the Winter of truth,

a great being-

finallywholeagain.

Multo magis

There is something out there,

a wind of the external,

smooth feeling, le corps,

then it stopped…,

amped up again and again,

and again,

till the morning dropped

its heavy load of rain,

petrichor stinging the nostrils,

touching the part of my brain

where I put you,

the Memory,

consciously undetected,

by the Wild and Misleading,

your Lovecraftian horror,

my cosmic friend,

soul of my soul,

being of my being,

a Lovers day…,

well of subdue,

then nothing else,

a Space - trivial,

without any meaning,

child learning to write,

to read lips,

to touch, to kiss them,

and finally acknowledge,

so much more,

that’s who we Be.

Luscinia

Sinu kannatuste allikas…,

kodu mis alliumiteta

*

The source of your suffering,

home without alliums,

the life you’ve been living,

a knifes edge…,

dull blade of perfinity,

a quiet killer of dreams,

dreams within dreams,

and the sound you made,

near an old farm-house,

beasts inside singing,

to a heavenly quartet,

little angels knitting a vest,

of all the elements of the universe,

the World and all its small issues,

made bigger by the god-head,

Mind that doesn’t matter

and a Matter that doesn’t mind,

*

“He who makes a Beast of himself,

gets rid of the pain of being a man”

dear Samuel Johnson knows…,

what does the seagull know,

what does the Sea?

a picturesque landscape,

inspiring young poets, painters

and writers…,

oooh, them vile and vilified,

Rapture in the moonlight,

a gods hand, 

like a misty fauno,

wiping over all that was,

that has to Be,

and you - my darling,

like a Nightingale…,

a Pharmacist,

of the Old World,

my Luscinia,

so that you would know…,

Love and all its Friends,

a rebel boat on a lake,

a Winter taking hold,

a forest too cold,

Aristophanes writing

sad and meaningless verses,

plays from the Underworld,

before Birds and Callimachus,

before the rape of inspiration,

a soothing touch of Pegasus,

that’s how I felt…,

meeting you,

that morning…,

near the Hawthorne Gate,

a Garden of Mischievous Deeds,

blooming orchids

and a well, the Dipper,

small and meaningful things,

a kiss, a flower, 

you in your dress,

white as lily,

“Toto, I’ve a feeling

we’re not in Kansas anymore”,

said my head, my heart,

a long and lingering…,

Good day to you sir,

Goodbye,

*

and all that is good…,

in this world,

when you walked,

and talked,

wild, wild West,

the Umbra of your knowing,

darkest of nights,

before your Light,

grace of a thousand,

Here I stand,

stolen the Crown of Visceral,

hair to high noon,

ready for you, the Amphitheater,

and my soul to be पूरा

poora as the Indians call it,

täielik for Estonians,

complete, finished, thorough,

integrated, Absolute,

unblemished is the way

that I walk…,

road to the Unknown,

a sense of gentle meaning,

in meaning nothing at all,

and all in Nothing,

there are knights…,

in the afternoon,

saying: Now I’m ready,

I’m ready now.

- Ooh how green we are.

Canvas Of Love

It crawled from under a big rock,

mouth filled with worms

and bugs and other elements,

it stayed its hand before the anger struck,

no parent could have ever done that,

it said with great care that it loved,

that pain was succumbed to the virtuous,

that Heaven was in a grain of sand,

a Wildflower near the wall of our house,

a pesky snake of androgynous development,

soon to be marred…,

as does all that is different in this world,

it is a cruel state of affairs…,

“These violent delights have violent ends.”

Shakespeare said in Romeo and Juliet,

what a play…,

these passions read unmistakingly,

some even died on a cross,

for who these ties have tied,

those colors glimmer in the blue velvet,

of a sky…,

your carpet is better than mine,

it’s attached to a wall,

so misty and windy and cold,

the night is,

soon to be marred…,

then fixed or healed or resurrected,

again and again and again,

the ghost of our past,

endless bickering,

a stick with meat,

just a stupid way to stay smart,

never smart enough,

only ever waning in comparison,

consciously resting…,

peace of mind and heart 

and letting go…,

and you my fine Oak,

with dying branches and leaves,

ready to sleep…,

then wake again.

The Sun of Perpetual Cosmos

“ I would traverse not once more, but often the hell of my inner being. One day I would be a better hand at the game. One day I would learn how to laugh. Pablo was waiting for me, and Mozart too.”

Hermann Hesse, Steppenwolf

Through and through…,

as a flicker in the woods,

a Nature - cruel yet true,

their laughter…, 

was a finicky remembrance,

of all the stillness,

of all the silliness,

lost in the void of Being,

cold and harsh…,

not harsh but something more,

indulgent in its flow,

energy - what keeps it together,

a nuanced way of Living,

here it stayed…,

unlovable and loved,

Loneliness like a rite,

a pacifists romance with murder,

a killer of some ancient flower,

tuned into the very fabric of existence,

no city or noise or complaint

could ever wax and wane,

Here it just is,

*

what glorious Light…,

its emanating, radiate,

a solemn vow…, WOW,

and then…, poof,

drowned in its search,

a beast, a Nation,

a People…,

Angelic sort,

creeping behind windows,

our souls,

floating on all the memories,

what’s left of them,

floating over wood,

the stone, stove (hot and cold),

Lovers hearts…,

beating as one,

Done,

like a river,

beaten to submission,

by the dams and pressure,

by time and Timelessness,

metal on metal on metal,

against metal,

future crying in its birth,

people Mad as herring,

salty taste of volcanic rock,

oozing the lava of compassion,

none left for me,

I left none for me,

*

but Heaven is beneath our feet,

not the way we want things to be,

they ought to be, should be,

but how they really are…,

that is poverty of Death,

a smile of god-child,

eggless in its growth,

spherical essence of Now,

un-Now…,

it moves with the current,

trust and river and silence,

few crabs are nesting…,

fishermen running while standing,

the Sun of perpetual Cosmos,

giving no judgment,

releasing pure energy,

to the good, the bad,

the very worst…,

here she rests,

me as well, the world,

ready and able.

*